Like hopscotch, tag, rhyming taunts and other fodder of the recess break, the F-bomb gets passed down from one generation to the next. Now that I think of it, I suspect the F-bomb has the most certain path from fourth grader to kindergartener for the generations to come.
In my own case, familiar with the stories of the rite of passage that is the first uttered F-bomb, I braced myself for it. I knew that once he knew the word the genie would be out of the bottle and it would be futile to wag my finger with the insistence that he never say the word again. As I envisioned it, I would hear about it secondhand from a teacher or other adult or catch him mid-utterance and petrify him with a tap on the shoulder and a, "Pardon me?"
Instead, my son caught me completely off guard over the Sunday morning French toast. The morning chatter was going where it was and he looked up at me and asked, "Are you going to say 'f--king'?" I've never uttered it in front of him. I've managed to channel my rage to "goofing" when he has me at my wit's end and this morning, I was nowhere in the vicinity of that near-apoplexy.
And damnit, (excuse me), didn't he actually find a way to use it in a manner that managed to retain some of his innocence rather than smear it with a comment like, "Yes I know what it means!! I said it because he was f--king pi--ing me off!!"
OOOOkay.
I was left laughing at the question and the way it was posed. I still managed to make the key points that I needed to make about the word. I pointed out that neither his mother nor I use it in front of him and went through a long roster of adults in his circle who don't use it. Having confirmed that he was not sure what the word meant -- one talk at a time, please -- I advised him on the risks of using words that he didn't know the meaning of and let me know that on the playground those risks could include an unwelcome punch or worse. Still, I struggled both not to laugh and not to go too over the top in my reaction. There's every chance I did both and found an odd balance in that. I made it clear, though, that I didn't want to hear it and that it was a word that could hurt. I reminded him of his sadness a few days earlier when a friend told him he hated him and added that this word could hurt just as much.
The occasion will be filed in my memories of French toast from now on and we will see what will come of his new familiarity with this mysterious, powerful word.
Will the floodgates open and will we find the F-bomb flying regularly? I'll admit I was tempted to tell him to "Use a f--king towel," (but didn't) when he was flinging his hands dry after washing them, but I managed to restrain myself despite the inadequacy of "goofing" as an adjective.
And, no, I won't be taking him to Deadpool now.
